There is no conviction, however heart-felt it might be, that justifies any atrocity committed such as yours. The question of your mental health plays little or no role at all in establishing a reason for what you’ve done. Neither does the question of your political view. Your act was undoubtedly insane and without question a political dead-end.
You are proof, that by putting your fist where your heart is, you fail. Maybe we all should put our hearts where our fists are and unclench, please.
Oh well. I put my heart on the map, or rather vice versa. And it got a little to white-ish. I intended it a little more transparent. But hey, who cares. The operation, which I thought would take me all day was cut short when I decided to do it on the floor anyway, it was so much easier but hard on those sclerotic legs albeit healthy for them I suppose. Rendered some shadow parts in the heart a little darker too. Next step is finalizing the outline on the heart before applying the next map on top of everything else. Lot of thoughts on that one too: do it in colored but thinner outlines? Multicolored? Do it with posca pens? Hm. We’ll see. It’s good to be working again.